I'm tired of myself
“I don’t need anything from this life anymore… not from people, not from moments, not from expectations.
I stopped waiting for things to change, stopped hoping someone would understand every part of me. I just learned how to live with the silence, how to carry what I feel without letting it spill everywhere.
Now I smile, not because everything is fine, but because I’ve mastered the art of hiding what’s breaking inside me. I’ve become good at pretending, good at looking okay even when I’m not.
They see a happy girl when they look at me. Someone calm, someone fine, someone who has it all together. But they don’t see the weight I carry, the thoughts I don’t say, the nights I stay awake just thinking too much.
Maybe that’s how it is now… I don’t ask for anything anymore. I don’t reach for anything either. I just exist, quietly, behind a smile that knows too much.”
